Scare with Sawyer

It's been quite the week to say the least!
Tuesday started off like any other day, get up, feed Sawyer, shower, Pete takes him to the sitter, go to work. At about 10:15 our babysitter Barbie called me at work, which never happens. She was frantic and said I had to come right away, Sawyer was having problems breathing earlier and started turning blue. I hung up the phone and ran to my car faster than I've ever gone before. I was a nervous-wreck. Of course, nobody was going the speed limit either. I was stuck behind every slow moving vehicle at 10:15am on a Tuesday. I was laying on the horn and felt like Cruella DeVille driving down Taylor Drive, but I made it there in record time let me tell you!

I got there and Sawyer was pale as a ghost and not moving like normal. I called his pediatrician as I was loading him into his car seat and said we're coming in now, make an opening becuase someone needs to see him. I took Barbie with me and she explained what happened on the way in. Apparently he was hanging out and was fine, but then started coughing, and then he started having problems getting air...seemed like something was stuck in his throat. He was tryign to cough it out but loosing air and apparently started turning blue and his eyes started rolling back and finally he coughed up some mucous.Then he was breathing fine. I guess Barbie was very close to calling 911 until that suddenly came out. Makes me want to start sobbing thinking about it....

Anyway, the doctor came out in the waiting room right away and listened to his breathing and his chest was clear so they got a room for us and got us right in. She checked his chest and heard no obstruction in there which is great. Then she did an oxygen level test and his oxygen level was 100% and his heart rate was in the 140s. Everything came back great. Poor Barbie was in the corner crying and scared out of her mind at what she had witnessed earlier.

Since everything came back great, the Doctor told me I should just take him home the rest of the day and watch him CLOSELY. If it happens again, call 911 or come into the hospital ASAP, whatever is necessary to do. I took Barbie home and told her to try to calm her self and I'd keep her posted the rest of the day. the second I got home, I lost it. I was absolutely sobbing. Things could have been very bad, very, very bad and I don't even know what I'd do without that little boy. He, of course, was acting just fine. He learned that day how to roll from his back to his belly (which the doc said is really early!). He just kept rolling, as if he was telling me, 'Mom, I'm fine, Stop crying'. He snuggled with me too which was great. Pete got home and he took Sawyer right away, and I started crying again. We put the pack n play in our bedroom for the night so we could listen better to him while he slept. We put him down to bed around 8pm and I am pretty sure I checked him every 5 minutes until I went to bed at 10pm. After I laid him down at 8, I came out of the room and sat on Pete's lap and just started bawling.
I by no means ever want to see him looking like that ever again. It's unfortunatley an imagine I can't get out of my head. He's the most precious thing to Pete and I and we'd do absolutely anything for him.

Crazy thing was, after I dropped off Barbie, she told me she was praying and praying that Sawyer would be OK and cough whatever it was up, and he did. When I dropped her off, there was a huge bright light shining above her house from the clouds...which we both believe was God saying he was watching over our precious baby boy.

So we made it 3 1/2 months with no scares from Sawyer, and there was the first of many I'm sure. If I could keep him in a padded bubble for the rest of his life, I would :) I am also pretty sure I grew my first gray hair and aged 20 years in a matter of seconds when all of that happened.

I always heard moms saying how much they love their kids and I never understood it. I love my family, and Pete, but this love, for a baby is such a different kind of love and so much harder to explain until you actually have a baby and can understand it. He's definitely the biggest blessing that's ever come into our life. I told Pete, our two babies, we unfortunately never got a chance to meet, were watching over their brother Sawyer Tuesday morning!

He's been fine since though :) Maybe he just wanted a way to spend the day with his mom :) Mission accomplished little man!